I guess I don't understand anymore.
Its just numb.
And sad.
Sometimes, being fake happy feels so close to happy.
But its not.
The only happy I have is with him
Its the closest I've been.
I don't know why I shut off everything.
But I did.
I closed out my emotions.
Just to prove that im stronger.
But im not.
Im weak.
Im the weakest one.
The link easyest to break.
I need to snap and snap soon.
Deepression?
That's what the doctor orderd.